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I Love the Skin I’m In!

With creating my page on “gofundme.com” I feel like I’ve written a lot lately about my experience of dis-ease. So much so that I had to really take a look at this note a friend posted on Facebook (not sure who was being quoted):

“Never Own a Disease.
Reduce the amount of time that you talk about being ill.
Refuse to allow illness a place in your consciousness.”

I do not own this disease. I claim health and wholeness. Yet, I also know that it has been extremely important to honor the experience my body is having. It takes a lot of energy to resist something, and if I’m busy sending energy of resistance to the experience my body is having, then I’ve given it a place in my consciousness and the disease owns me.

It’s much like when I first owned the statement “I am an alcoholic.” I had to acknowledge that I was powerless over the disease, and in that surrender I opened the door for true healing to take place. It has been important to take the time to be fully in the consciousness out of which the illness was created so that I could let go and move from that consciousness into what I know to be True.

One of the most important tools I can use on this journey is affirmative prayer. We condition our consciousness through what we focus on with our thoughts and feelings—and if we are focusing on illness we are conditioning our consciousness to express illness. In order to change the experience we must change the conditioning. Let me give you one simple example. On this journey I have now released over 80 lbs, and in doing my due diligence to be aware of what I was holding in consciousness, I realized that I was freaking out about the extra folds of skin. This focus was getting in the way of me releasing further weight. During a conversation with Lovey Jane Van Benthusen about this she suggested loving my skin. I followed her recommendation to purchase a natural brush, which she suggested I use to brush my skin several times a day. What a wonderful new focus. Haven’t made it to several times a day—however this has been one of the most transforming experiences I’ve ever taken on.

keep-calm-and-love-your-skin-5I started off with the simple denial and affirmation while I was in the shower. As I brushed off my skin (denial/release) I affirmed “I love the skin I’m in.” Fairly quickly this became a song that has become my mantra, conditioning my consciousness to truly rejoice in the gift of this physical body. Did you know that the skin is the largest single organ in the body? I had learned that at some point—however I didn’t realize the impact that truly, consciously, joyfully loving the skin I’m in would bring. Try it sometime…you won’t be disappointed.

Within a week of living with this song running through my life “I love the skin, the skin I’m in…I love the skin I’m in” people were stopping to tell me that whatever I was doing it was making a positive difference. This has become about more than loving the outer covering of this physical body. It has become about loving being IN this skin and affirming that right here and right now I am an expression of health and wholeness, whole and complete in every way.

Does that mean I don’t still have to deal with the symptoms of dis-ease that are moving through this physical, mental and spiritual body? No. It does, however, give me a whole new perspective and tools to deal with whatever I may experience—to transform any dis-ease I may be experiencing. This morning at the gym I was half way through my cardio and felt the resistance. I wanted to stop. I began to sing “I love the skin, the skin I’m in…I love the skin I’m in.” Next thing I knew I had surpassed my goal and felt great, too!!

When “Stuff” Happens

Started writing a blog last week and didn’t post it, as the experience still had something to teach me. The question that has dogged me—as much as I don’t want to admit it—is WHY?  Why do bad things keep happening?

Normally, I really don’t find “Why” to be a helpful question, as it keeps the focus on the past—and what we focus on we create (and re-create). I was explaining this to a friend at lunch last week and her reply was something like, “The question to ask yourself is not why things happen—it’s more like okay—what do I do now?”  My thoughts exactly…and then here comes that question again…WHY??? What did I do to attract this in to my life??  Oh yeah…right…let’s focus on what I choose to do now…though my BFF said it well on the phone today…sometimes it feels like it just sucks to be human.

That’s what I needed. To honor that feeling. I didn’t need to know Why, that was just the question guiding my awareness to the feeling that was stuffed somewhere beneath my experience of the past week. Sometimes we can get so caught up in the intention to see the world through the eyes of God that we forget that things don’t always feel perfect in our human world. Stuff happens.

Stuff like coming home from work to find my apartment flooded because my upstairs neighbor ran a huge amount of rice through the drain OR waking up to find I (temporarily) couldn’t see out of my left eye. Or the gift of having my landlord, his wife, and the maintenance person respond in person to help me at 1 in the morning, the eye doctor who says to me “you’re in the family now, and we are here for you,” a best friend who calls because her radar says Patty needs a call, and so much more. So much great ‘stuff’!

When you look for it, there’s always more to be grateful for, though when you’re in the middle of feeling like life sucks you can’t always see that. Here’s the thing I learned (again) this week—I get frustrated when my world seems to be out of my control. In fact, at some level I become a control freak. So what’s that all about? It’s about fear—or as Charles Fillmore (co-founder of Unity) called it “False Evidence Appearing Real.” I know that I am not the experiences in my life—though sometimes it definately feels that way.  

In the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous it talks about how when we harbor fear it will control our lives. When we emotionally or mentally buy into the false evidence of our experiences, we are making the choice to give our power over to fear rather than live our lives from a place of love. What would our world be like if we were to give Love the reigns to create our experience? Love is the creative energy of expressing our oneness with God, whereas fear is a destructive energy that perpetuates a false idea that we can even be separate from God.  

Love is the paradigm I choose. Anything else is a delusion—including the illusion of chaos in my life this past week. It is all God. There can be nothing other than the one presence and power of Love that we call God. When it feels like life sucks, I’ve wrestled the reigns of life from God and am struggling with the false identity of separation. What do I do now? Find something to be grateful for, to realign my thoughts with God. As I choose to experience my life from a consciousness of Oneness, I can trust the Divine Order present in the midst of chaos bringing forth the highest good. You can, too.

It’s great to be alive!

Namaste’